You see, it’s about perspective! It’s how you see and react towards your situation. #glasshalffull #glasshalfempty
I said previously that I stopped believing. I just couldn’t really handle what was going on at the time in my life. I thought “jeeze!” After not really having a childhood and no real stability, I really thought “finally! I have something going good for once in my life!” Was I ever wrong…
In the midst of a sudden chaos and once again having to experience betrayal, it’s as if the floor beneath me just disappeared! I kept falling and falling endlessly into this abyss. Where do I go from here? What do I do? Who do I trust now? I thought “never again will I go through this or my name is not Sojha Husien Cruz! Trust no one! Care for no one! Just do not allow NO ONE to ever define me!
2 children and a aspiring career, I thought I was unstoppable! Slowly but surely drifted away from the Lord. Stopped talking to Him and before you knew it, I tried to change my appearance, #epicfail I tried to date, #epicfail I tried to change my personality, #epicfail I tried to literally become someone I was not and harden my heart for as I said, I will NEVER go through that again, #epicfail
Alone and crying until my tears were no more, I found myself lost. I did not recognize the woman in the mirror. Who am I? What have I become? The more I tried to have a tough heart, the softer and more vulnerable I became! I once served the Lord and I was now found in a position where, I can’t even talk to Him! I am too dirty! I am not worthy of Him hearing me out! I don’t want to even hear my own self out!
To be continued…